#1 NYT bestselling author Linda Lael Miller

It seems to me…

…that writing a book is a brave thing to do.  I’ve been realizing lately that whatever I put my characters through, I go through as well.  All the “Big Sky” books are as honest as I can make them, and it can be painful to reveal so much about what I REALLY believe–about love, about honor, about people and animals and especially about God.  Every book I’ve ever written has been the best one I was capable of writing at the time, but these current stories are real in ways that sometimes leave me feeling pretty raw at the end of a day.  Furthermore, if I’m going to claim the attributes of the heros and heroines, then I must also claim those of the villains, because that’s the truth–we’re all a mixture of bad and good, strengths and shortcomings, faith and fear.  The way we turn out, it seems to me, is a matter of which attitude we choose in any given moment.  We can flip off the guy who cut us off in traffic, or we can realize that, like the rest of us, he’s going through something difficult and gets distracted.

Maybe it’s because I’m a writer that I tend to think in allegories, and those spring tulips and daffodils I’ve mentioned have been much on my mind recently.  Right now, those bulbs are pretty simple things, lying there under the dirt, apparently doing nothing at all.  Of course they ARE doing something–they contain the whole of God’s love and power and unstoppable creativity, and they are going through all the mystifyingly wonderful processes that will cause them to burst out of the dirt to greet the sunlight of early spring, gloriously garbed in bright yellows and pinks, reds and whites. 

Could it be that that seemingly unanswered prayer nestled deep in the silence of our hearts, seeming to do nothing, is actually like a flower bulb, undergoing unseen changes, night and day, week after week and month after month?  In the beginning, bulbs only need planting and an initial watering, maybe some fertilizer, but not much more.  Far as we can tell, they’re just buried, even forgotten.    Mostly, it’s about waiting and trusting that when the snow starts to subside, the daffodils and crocuses will pop up, isn’t it?  Could be your dreams will do that, too, in their season, if you keep believing and imagine them coming true as vividly as you can, the way I visualize my mulched and sleeping flowerbeds burgeoning with color and fragrance when the winter is over.

It seems that way to me.  :)

As for the new question: What is YOUR hidden dream-bulb, and can you imagine it blooming?


21 comments to “It seems to me…”

  1. Nyoka
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:09 pm · Link

    Hi Linda, very wonderful deep thoughts from you this morning! God promised if we would ” plant the seeds” He would do the rest… at the moment it seems that I can only plant the seeds… my days are getting shorter and I soon will see the evidence of my seed planting!!
    I received my personal autographed book from you yesterday and I was very excited!! I started reading it as soon as I opened it… Wow… what a wonderful story you can weave in a one room school house!!!!
    Thanks so much, I will treasure it always!!
    Much love
    God bless!!

  2. Ruth Ann Kiger
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:10 pm · Link

    I am 75 years old – my dream bulb is that I have planted within my children, grandchildren, and now my five year old greatgrandson happiness, joy, compassion and an example that if you trust God to hold you up, he will never let you own when your life hits a bump you can’t get over alone. Your blog today was especially encouraging to me because my dear friend (like an adopted son to me) lost his dad last night, and granddaughter lost a baby earlier this year who would have been born this week. Regarding your books – I’m glad you haven’t become a ‘cookie cutter’ writer, but still write from you heart. Thank you for today’s blog. :)

  3. Sherry Wallace
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:20 pm · Link

    That’s another thing that I love about you, Linda, & your books, it’s your true feelings & emotions coming through! I believe God uses you, too, to spread His love, forgiveness & plans :-). You are a blessing to us all . It’s a deep satisfied feeling to be so used by the Almighty!! My hidden “dream bulb” is to find the lasting love of a true MAN, like a McKettrick or a Creed. Do they even exist in real life? I’m beginning to wonder…
    Blessings to all,

  4. Kristie Wilson
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:24 pm · Link

    As a wife of almost 18 years and the mother to two daughters, ages 14 and 10, my dreams seem to revolve around those I love the most. I’m pretty content right now – I have all I could ever ask for: good health, a husband who cherishes me, enough money to get us what we need (and some of what we want), and the love of our Savior. I spend a lot of my time nowadays watching my girls in this very delicate time of their lives, as they start to have dreams of their own. I dread the inevitable disappointments they will face in the future, but it’s fun to watch their lives unfold before them.

    By the way, I’m loving the Big Sky series!

  5. Hilda
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:27 pm · Link

    Linda, your thoughts ARE indeed a huge encouragement. I’ve often thought that every bulb we plant is an expression of faith in the Master’s Green Thumb. For “summer lovers” like me, it provides something to look forward to. Thank you so much for expressing the hopes, fears and dreams that so many of us bury in the backs of our minds because life takes over the front of our minds so much. I want to express my sincere sympathies to some of your other fans who have recently mentioned losing loved ones. May they experience the Lord’s peace, or peace form whatever source they look for it.

  6. Gloria
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:27 pm · Link

    Linda, I have 2 Dream Bulbs. The first and foremost is to have my son’s back made whole so he can live a normal life, again, go back to work, and not lose all he’s worked for all his adult life.

    My second Dream Bulb is to have my old house re-newed, not fancy, but livable. That Dream Bulb is so real that I have it “decorated” in my mind, down to every piece of furniture in place and “stuff” sitting on it, and to having the yard/gardens planted with new plants and re-planted with the heirlooms that are already there.

    My reality is…without the means to hire the doctors for my son, and the workers for the house, both are as hopless as having a Dream Bulb that my oldest son wouldn’t have died 6 years ago next Thursday.

    But, I still keep my Dream Bulbs planted because I feel that without a dream to keep you going, life wouldn’t be worth living. Everyone needs a Dream to strive for.

    A whole garden of Dream Bulbs is even better. Thank you, Linda, for putting the thought of dreams and prayers into perspective like that.

  7. Anne
      · October 11th, 2012 at 12:31 pm · Link

    Wow! I had to read that twice to really let those deep thoughts penitrate my brain. We are truly multifaceted and complicated beings. Capable of both horrors and incrediable beauty. I think that is why I love reading. Authors, including yourself, are able to show the full scope of the human psyche and experience. I think it shows us hope and forgiveness. It proves that personal growth is possible. And I think that it allows to to see that whatever dark valley we are walking threw that its survivable. Happiness can be multiplied. God is truly there and listening, proof is there in those hidden seeds and the relationships in are lives.

    As to the answer to your question. What is my hidden dream bulb and can I imagine it blooming? That would be my relationship with God, My love for my family and friends and lastly my prayer for my health.

    There are days when I am so sure I have a clear visual of them growing, strengthening and mending in my mind and then there are days when my physical and mental health make me doubt it. That is where the prayers for strength come into play and I overcome the darkness and temporary lack of physical strength. I know I am human going back and forth like that but its feels exhausting. But I also know that the struggle is part of the human journey and strengthens me in other area’s.

  8. sam
      · October 11th, 2012 at 1:03 pm · Link

    Linda, I will have to think long and hard about “my hidden dream bulb” I just love the way you think and express yourself on paper, thank-you for sharing it :)

  9. Alice M. Harnisch
      · October 11th, 2012 at 4:08 pm · Link

    My hidden dream bulb seems to have diminished in the past few years. Working to make money doesn’t give me the time to do my dream of writing a book myself. Also, wanted to be happily married by now, but that dream has been pushed aside due to personal, financial and life reasons. :-|

  10. april
      · October 11th, 2012 at 4:39 pm · Link

    My hidden dream bulb is to live a life worth living. To try to remember to find joy in the little things. To teach my two children ages 7 and 5 to find joy in the little things. To live a life that when I look back on I can look on with fond memories. To know that I tried new things and enjoyed it. To know that I wasn’t so busy living in the future that I couldn’t see and enjoy today. I’m still working on it but think I’ll get there. :-D

  11. Sal
      · October 11th, 2012 at 5:56 pm · Link

    Wow. Totally knocked it out of the park today Sister! Love you.

  12. karen lawrence
      · October 11th, 2012 at 7:31 pm · Link

    what happed to mojo?

  13. karen lawrence
      · October 11th, 2012 at 7:32 pm · Link

    what happened to mojo/

  14. Lois Rotella
      · October 11th, 2012 at 8:00 pm · Link

    Wow !! You really got me thinking. I think my special bulb would be that I be a good person which I hope I am. The other bulbs would be that my family be happy and loving. My special bulb would have been married with kids of my own( would love to meet a Mckettrick or Creed Man) but I don’t that will ever happen. You really make me think about life. :lol: I love your books because the are so full of all our human traits that we can all relate to them.

  15. Shari Grant
      · October 11th, 2012 at 9:29 pm · Link

    When I read your books, I identify so much with the characters both male and female. You draw them with words so beautifully that they seem like good friends that are hard to part with at the end of the book. I think that is a bit why I keep reading and rereading the McKettrick books and have made a family tree to try to keep track of who is related to whom and in what generation. It is also true of the Creeds and O’Ballivans. It is now true of John Carmody’s sons. I suspect the next Montana book will be about Boone and Tara. Their story isn’t complete yet and I can’t wait to read more about them.

    When I think of bulbs planted and getting ready to sprout, I think of my grandchildren. I hope for all six of them that they will find someone as honest and loyal as the heroes and heroines in your books to love and with whom they can build a meaningful and happy life they are proud of. They don’t have to be perfect. They can make mistakes. But at the heart of it they have to be good people. That is what I hope for. One of the things I love about the characters in your books is that they are not perfect, but they have integrity and when they commit they do it with their whole hearts.

  16. Crystal
      · October 11th, 2012 at 10:39 pm · Link

    Wow! What a beautiful blog today! And the comments… Wow u are so wonderful and all I have to say is keep your dream bulbs watered and fertilized and MAKE them a reality. I think of that scripture in the bible that talks how with man things seem impossible but with God ALL things are possible! Like in previous blogs my dream is to conceive a child yet that is not in Gods plan yet I have adopted 3 beautiful children in which I look at it that its better than conceiving 1 I got 3! Lol with no pain no weight gain etc. The only difference is that instead of growing in my belly they just grew in my heart!! So my dream bulb is for my kids ages 12 10 and 9 may u keep all your dreams in reach and remember to keep God first, u can do all things through Christ who gives u strength!

  17. Amy Henderson
      · October 12th, 2012 at 9:30 am · Link

    I’m with Sherry Wallace…my dream bulb would be a hard working, hard loving man in my life…I’ve questioned many times since my divorce if they really exist. I know there are a chosen few out there, as I have friends who have them has husbands..I guess they are taken already! I also dream that my 2 kids find everlasting love in a partner down the road…I pray they never go through a divorce like me. I feel as parents, that me and my EX, let our kids down and that has been weighing on me more and more lately. Thank you for your writings…books and blogs!

  18. Stacey
      · October 12th, 2012 at 12:02 pm · Link

    Hi Linda,
    I am Stacey Carey, we have chatted a bit during the most recent facebook chat, one of my hidden dreams that I am currently trying to make a reality is my career in quilting, and my other secret secret dream is to write a book, but the problem with that is that I have not written in many years. It is hard to find the time.

  19. Carole Sklenar
      · October 12th, 2012 at 2:36 pm · Link

    Deep thoughts for sure and made me stop and think about the truths of your statements and ponder about the miracle of life when the beautiful bulbs bloom after a winter’s sleep and how beautiful they are. I love it when my hyacinths bloom as the fragrance is fantastic and I’m so longing for the snow to be gone long enough for them as well as any tulips or jonquils I have to bloom too and the dogwood, pear, apple and redbud trees too. Sure does make one feel in awe at the beauty that God has created for us mere humans to enjoy.

    • Juliana Parlet
        · October 12th, 2012 at 11:06 pm · Link

      Linda thank you for your inspiring words. It was much needed after a hard day!!

      I am a 4H volunteer leader, I have been working hard at over comming a lot of challenges in our club. Last year we were afraid we might need to close it or merge with another club. I have been learning a lot about positiveness, going to a lot of training, & striving to be a better leader. It is great to be involved with a positive youth development program. I am proud of the club, this year we still have challenges, but we are going strong, our enrollment is up, & we have more adult volunteers.

      My hidden dream bulb is to see the youth in 4H thrive, in 4H and in their personal lives. To become strong & independent adults.

  20. Kathy T
      · October 13th, 2012 at 12:32 am · Link

    I want you to know that your post made me cry! My dreams tell me that someday things will be okay; life has been particularly hard, filled with illness and depression, but I’ve come to realize myself on paper and on canvas. On those substrates I have been strengthened. One of my dream-bulbs is to be a published author, but it is taking a long time. As I’m writing my books, I feel like I’m stuck in one spot and going nowhere! But, perhaps, this feeling of “motionless” or “dormancy” is really just my bulb taking root and strengthening itself. No matter what the future holds, I have faith that my dream-bulb will grow strong. Thank you so much for your post, and for reminding me that God is quiet. :) Have a good one!

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